After the gluttonous delights of my chocolate filled Easter and gloriously British cream tea and scone royal wedding feast, ‘Hungry for Change’ snuck up on me like a thief in the night. Like 1.4billion in the world, I lived on £1 a day for five days…
DAY ONE; Day One began with me stocking up with £4.11 worth of food, (reserving enough in my budget for a cup of tea a day…) but I’m going to try not to have tea. I wake up ready and raring to dive headlong with flying colours into this challenge! My enthusiasm wanes slightly as I miss my morning cup of tea and knock over a plant pot in my room- generating a somewhat heightened and caffeine deprived reaction…Usually, me and my four other housemates pool a food budget and cook and clean as a community. My once supportive housemates, who all joined me in solidarity on the challenge, have slowly dropped out, including the one remaining faithful who fell at the first hurdle and inadvertently ate this morning… the idea seems tempting. I headed into town where a bank holiday world food market was taking place, exotic smells and sumptuous sights. I was completely overcome with a sense of deprivation, like to eat good food when I wanted, how I wanted was my RIGHT, I deserve that freedom and I was being denied…Wow. Well, for 1.4billion that reality is everyday… Indeed, I wasn’t hungry. I’d eaten pretty normally for the day so far- it was just the restriction on my freedom, the inability to satisfy an appetite. A harsh lesson for my stubborn flesh to learn in discipline and self control.
DAY TWO; O hello 9-5, I’d forgotten what you felt like. I headed back to work today and my 6.30 alarm clock did not make me a happy bunny. Nor did my watery porridge oats. Usually, my work day is punctuated by frequent tea and coffee breaks. But today- only water. I really really really miss tea. How sad is that?! I do feel hydrated and surprisingly perky though due to the rivers of water I have been drinking. My work colleague’s mum has baked us a delicious banana cake…but I’m looking forward to my mid-afternoon banana treat at 2pm. At least I am in an office and not doing any physical labor. In the afternoon, I read a magazine article about dieting and weight and think I could fool myself into thinking this is some kind of in vogue fad diet… But it’s not- so I choose to align myself with those who do not have a choice. All day I have struggled with being some hungry version of the seven dwarfs- Grumpy. Agitated. Snappy. Tired. The psychological aspect of the challenge is a lot harder than I anticipated. But the challenge does bring into perspective other sensory pleasures; the scenery on my walk to work, music on my ipod, getting the bus, company of friends- I find myself with a greater attitude of gratitude. I cave at around 4pm and have a cup of tea- to save my workmates from the medusa-like character that is emerging in me. And one before bed too. Dinner is pasta and broccoli with tinned tomatoes.
DAY THREE: HOORAY! I came home last night to find my cupboards in our kitchen sealed with tape covered in ‘NO ENTRY’ and ‘REMEMBER THE AFRICAN CHILDREN’… and on the side of our counter, a house worth of £5 daily budget food….My beautiful and wonderful housemates are now partaking in the challenge too!!! The idea of unity and community is so important. With this new stand of solidarity I no longer felt like a victim (pathetic I know) and have a wider range of food by sharing-including fruit and veg and a tin of tuna! (Small pleasures and a greater attitude of gratitude remember) As a house family, we cook dinner together and eat our modest feast of jacket potatoes and beans, we laugh and share our day, the food secondary to friendship. I find I have a new vigor and strength to face the day! My tea cravings and headaches from caffeine withdrawal have subsided a little and being half way through the challenge, my mind wanders to planning the first meal I will have on Saturday… Steak and Fancie cake for breakfast anyone?! But again, I choose to align myself with those 1.4 billion who do not have the prospect of Saturday relief and feel like I’m cheating by wishing the challenge away. Having read the tweets and blogs of some others in the challenge, as well as some lovely friends sending texts of support and sponsorship, a further sense of solidarity spurs me on. Community has really saved my bacon this time (one thing on the brain, can you guess) and coming together in the hard times gives me new sustenance.
DAY FOUR: Today I wake up a half hour ahead of my alarm! I feel hydrated from the buckets of water consumed and have been getting extra sleep for energy. My work mate throws a squidgy ball at me early in the work day and I nearly cry?! I feel very emotionally delicate- partly a side effect of estrogen, but also due to the lack of sugar in my blood. And of course, lack of tea. Lunch was a sandwich and a carrot. Dinner is pasta and a yummy pudding of crushed biscuits, banana and yoghurt- the treat of the week! Usually as a house before mealtimes, we say grace. Though I have noticed this week, that we haven’t done so naturally. Am I not grateful for my daily bread unless I enjoy it? Unless it satisfies my appetite rather than fulfils my physical needs? Though I have been eating the same AMOUNT of food, I continuously feel hungry… And what is hunger aside from satisfying an appetite?! I meet up with three old coursemates for a drink in the evening- mines a tap water on the rocks please- and am tortured whilst they sit there eating wedges and drinking hot chocolate oozing with cream. I also endured food shopping in Marks and Spencers beforehand with another dear friend- GIVE ME STRENGTH! I feel boring and not the best company- like a flat coke. That I can’t drink. So much of our culture is food-centric that fasting, aside from within faith and religion, is alien. I hadn’t thought how the challenge affected my social life, but it restricts it massively. Here’s to being a cultural alien.
DAY FIVE: The last leg of the challenge today. As I am not at work, my eating pattern shifts later into the day and take my two boiled eggs breakfast to a friends. I decide that I will attend my gym class that afternoon to really push myself to the limit like those who endure physical hardship alongside food deprivation. Cardio combat; a grueling and intense power hour of military and combat exercise… I find that I have more resolve in the class, a sharper focus to push through pain and although physically draining, I enjoy working my mind and body to maximum! The thought of more carbs for dinner fills me with dread, so I skip carbicide knowing that tomorrow will be the end of the challenge. My plan for steak and cake for breakfast has changed- I decide I will have an innocent smoothie, fruit salad and greek yoghurt in light of my workout. As I go to bed, I reflect on the week. ‘Hungry for Change; I always thought my ‘body was a temple’, but how often did I worship the idol of food! I have realized that eating isn’t necessarily about filling yourself up with a hunger plug to satisfy an appetite, but about enjoying and appreciating food- a privilege and blessing that billions, 1.4billion in this world do not have. The sense of injustice I felt against myself throughout the week was shocking! Even in this watered-down version, much like the milk on my morning oats. I decide I will buy better quality- more organic and fair-trade foods and a smaller quantity. I have realized how much excess and indulgence I engage with and actually how little I need. It’s not about feast and it’s not about famine. Overall, the challenge has exposed flaws in my attitude to food and changed my perspective- I would wholeheartedly encourage you to look at your relationship too in a world where food is seen as a luxury, in comparison to those who eat out of necessity. For those 1.4billion, fight the scandal and injustice of hunger.
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